Friday, October 13, 2017

Friday the 13th: Fear


October has to be my favourite month of the year, mainly because of Halloween! I also love the weather, and we are lucky enough to have a Friday the 13th as well! Are you superstitious? Do you see this day as something to dread? I actually worked with a young girl who called in sick every Friday the 13th because she honestly felt something bad would happen to her.

I am superstitious in certain ways, but I don't believe that today is unlucky. In fact, so far I'm having a great day. It's not a bad time of the year to face your fears though. I do unfortunately suffer debilitating anxiety and panic attacks. I've done years of therapy, did the medication thing, tried the natural remedies and healthy lifestyle...nothing seems to cure it.

I had a really bad attack last night, why? Your guess is as good as mine, but it lasted way too long for my liking. No matter what I do, I just cannot pinpoint what is causing this. How I currently deal with it is as much prevention as possible. But when it does rear its ugly head, I'm glad that Alex helps me. He reminds me to do my yoga breathing, it's called Alternate Nostril Breathing (which really helps, follow the link if you need to relax!). He also quickly looks on YouTube for something silly to watch to help me laugh. Last night, he loaded up a bunch of "Jiminy Glick" episodes. If you're never heard of this, it's Martin Short in a huge fat suit interviewing people very inappropriately - really funny stuff.

These two things (yoga breathing and laughing) seem to be the only temporary cures for panic. I'm still working on more prevention though. I think it'll be something I have to live with my entire life, which brings on its own fear. Bad cycle and ironically my biggest fear causes it. Ugh!!!

6 comments:

MrsDuncanMahogany said...

I too have anxiety. So does my son. My mom had it, her mom and all her sisters. I believe its genetic and that we can't run from. I breathe deeply, hug my dogs (if I am at home), try my best to settle it down. I have cut most caffeine from my diet too. I also try to be mindful. All the training I have done with mindfulness (perpetual student) and I still get anxious! Ridiculous me! But it is what it is and we do our very best to try and ease the anxiousness. I wish for you peace.

Plowing Through Life (Martha) said...

Rain, I'm sorry that you struggle with anxiety. Anxiety can be very debilitating. I know many people that suffer from it. I've dealt with it at different periods of my life, my most intense being when I struggled with postpartum depression after my older daughter was born. Luckily, it's only been a few times and all of them short term. Alex sounds very supportive, which is very important and very appreciated. I am glad you have someone like that in your life.

Rain said...

Hi Dianna :) I try my best to settle it down too, but it's sure not easy. I'm sorry you go through it as well. I just hate it. Mine started after the burnout and gets better in cycles then hits me hard again. I wish you peace as well! Hugging the dogs is always good for the spirit, even if it doesn't calm the anxiety! :)

Rain said...

Hi Martha :) Thank you :) For me it is quite debilitating, and it just comes out of nowhere. I'm terrified and I don't know why. It affects my eating too. Horrible thing. I'm often tempted to go back on meds, but I always had to keep increasing the dose as the "bandaid" solution wore off. I'm sorry you went through the postpartum depression. Oh and yes, Alex is my biggest supporter. When I was alone, it was very difficult to deal with, but I know I can always lean on him! :)

Pam Jackson said...

Oh my....those attacks can be so horrible. I don't suffer from them per say but I have had some. Very scary. Sorry to hear you had to deal with that. Hang in there, keep breathing. Fears~ mine are spiders and water. I love the water but I have a respect for it also. I prefer to get in it when I have no kids around or no silly adults! Spiders - I deal with them with a can of bug spray! Or if small enough, a shoe! haha....take care Rain!

Rain said...

Thanks Pam :) They just come out of nowhere and it's so awful, but I seem to be able to ease it quickly most times. Just the odd time it lasts hours and all I can think of is that I must be dying or something...horrible because the thoughts also feed the panic! Oooh, spiders give me the willies....I can't handle them! It's funny, the other night, Alex said "okay Rain, just take it easy." And I immediately thought "SPIDER!" and there was one on the wall behind me. He took care of it like a knight in shining armour lol...anything that moves quick and has more than 4 legs makes me shiver! :)