Tuesday, September 26, 2017

Blue Skies Ahead

I try always to see the positive side of everything. I'm not perfect though. When something difficult or worrisome happens, I go into anxiety mode naturally and sometimes get caught up in the negative aspects of the issue. Alex is the same way and we make big efforts to change our way of thinking because we've both had tough lives and we want to make the best of what we have now.

We know that we will face difficulties in our future, everyone will. But turning those hard times into life lessons is the biggest challenge! We talked last night about our move. We plan to buy a home and property in 2019. We're by no means wealthy (financially!), so we were trying to figure out how we'd move our houseful of possessions and pets, likely to a new province - by ourselves without hiring movers - which we won't be able to afford. We also wondered how we'd manage going to visit properties if they are an eight hour drive away...with all the pets in tow! All of these will be challenges that we will have to face in order to achieve the future of our dreams.

It's going to be interesting! :)

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

The Pioneer Spirit

Alex and I watched a John Wayne movie last night called The Searchers...his Westerns usually revolve around Civil War era and pioneer times. My only real knowledge of pioneer times is "Hollywooded Up"...but even with the movie's likely exaggeration, I think those pioneers were darn brave and hard working! Imagine taking a few hours each morning to prepare and make a daily breakfast? Fending off enemies while keeping your land safe...trying desperately to make a living in a new land while keeping your family and animals safe, healthy and fed? Imagine winters? Trying to clothe yourself and keep the house warm without burning it down? 

I don't know, I don't think I'm THAT courageous!! I have so much respect for those people because they laid the groundwork for everything we have in our lives today. Even though I can't imagine living that life, I have that pioneer spirit in me that's for sure. 

I think that Alex and I are slowly but surely moving towards a more pioneer-type lifestyle. We are both learning how to fend for ourselves so to speak - with the help of technology (You Tube) to show us how!! The garden is one thing we are both very proud of. I always mention "my" garden, but Alex has helped me a great deal with it and we are both enjoying the benefits! We both prune, we both pick the veggies, we both admire the flowers, we are both worried about the tomatoes and pumpkins...it's become a big part of our lives and we can't wait to be able to grow more! Alex has lots of ideas for greenhouses because our goal is to feed ourselves all year round. It's quite exciting! :)

One of my goals is to make my own wardrobe from now on. The knitting has started, and the sewing will come next (my poor sewing machine is gathering dust...). I'm learning from my fellow Bloggers about raising ducks and chickens and goats. I'm so intrigued by crafts like soap making. I am trying to make as much as I can from scratch so as not to rely on insane grocery store prices for mediocre products. Alex is learning lots about home repair, renovating, building and millinery skills (that's hat making).  We both would eventually like to learn more about car repair as well, but one thing at a time! But if truth be told, we'd love to ditch the car for a horse and buggy...not sure that's doable, but it's a nice thought. :)

I would say at this point, that we are still dependent on technology too much, but we are gradually decreasing our online-ness as well and opting for simpler joys like reading on the porch or the hammock. We do rely heavily on Hydro for heat and power...but we're renting so we have that as our excuse. In the mean time, we are learning more about self-sufficiency and living off the grid. We want to feel as much freedom as we can as each day goes by.

As the world is moving more and more towards technology and materialism, we are moving in the opposite direction and it really feels good.

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

The Wise Woods

Everything in Nature has a message to tell if you are open to it. Sometimes when walking in the woods, I seek out advice. I don't ask for anything, I always believe in helping myself first; but I do pay attention.

I look at the trees and remember how strong, weathered and tall they are, no matter what has befallen them. I am sometimes fortunate enough to see a deer, who reminds me to be graceful and not let anything get in the way of my feeling of freedom. The squirrels teach me to be prepared. The wind teaches me that problems will "blow over". The river teaches me that my emotions need to flow to reach the tranquility of the lake. The fog teaches me to be careful. The seasons teach me that change needs to happen and that life is a wonderful cycle of renewal and transition. The sun reminds me of my passions in life and the moon reminds me of my feminine side.

I love symbolism and for me a walk in the woods is very therapeutic. Sometimes I'll just feel so happy and grateful that I'll say out loud..."Okay forest, what do you want to teach me today?" :) And I usually learn something very valuable!

Monday, September 11, 2017

Celebrate A Welcoming

I think it's always good to have an open mind and an open heart. If you close yourself off too much and forget to "smell the roses" as they say; you give yourself less of a chance for new possibilities and opportunities.

For a long time, I lived for my career and everything in my life revolved around it. In retrospect, I can see things I missed out on because I felt that the job was the only important thing in my life. I learned that lesson the hard way!

But I also believe that everything happens for a reason. I had to learn that there was more to life than pleasing others. And honestly, I didn't gain much from it except lifetime mental health issues! I was seeking approval for such a long time and that's what really drove me. Instead of seeking approval from others, I should have tried to make myself happy and approve of my own choices!

I do that now and I've never been happier. It's allowed me to have an open mind and spirit. I make sure I take time every day to enjoy what nature has to offer all around me. This makes me feel so grateful for nature's gifts and increases my appreciation for the simpler things I have in my life. For me, what's important isn't always tangible.

Friday, September 8, 2017

Falling Leaves

I think that autumn is definitely here in the mountains...I'm seeing leaves turning red and orange, the temperatures are chilly, but there is that "fallness" in the air that I just love!

As the leaves start to fall, I often think of things I've let "fall" away from me. Things that I was so jazzed up about at one point that got lost in the shuffle of life.

One of my goals is to live without regret so I try my best not to let things go. I may set something aside "for now" but I always try to get back to it!

As each season changes, I love the opportunity to renew myself, my goals and to clean up anything that didn't work for me the last few months!

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Full Moon Nurturing

Tonight is September's Full Corn Moon - named appropriately because this is the time of the year for the corn harvest. We've been enjoying lots of corn on the cob lately, oh it's so sweet this time of year!!

I love watching the skies, especially the moon phases. We saw the moon last night nearly full and it had a yellow hue to it, like a cob of corn. :) In some spiritual belief systems, the moon represents different aspects of the Triple Goddess. For those who don't know, the Triple Goddess is likened to Christianity's God, except she is female and has three stages of her life: Maiden, Mother and Crone. I relate more to the Quadruple Goddess idea of Maiden, Mother, Queen and Crone...representing the four phases of a woman's life. People will disagree with me, but I don't like the idea of moving from motherhood straight to old age! I think that a woman's middle-age can be the best phase of her life...at least I'm experiencing that! :)

In any case, whatever you believe, as long as you are happy and content, bravo! :) I have nothing against any faith that doesn't bring harm to others. I always feel I need to say this so that people don't get offended.

The Full Moon phase of the moon represents the Mother, the nurturer...so it's a good time to sit down and think about who or what in your life needs your attention and your nurturing. How can you take care of others who need you while remembering to take care of yourself too?

By the way, that photo is proudly MINE. :) Alex gave me an amazing camera for my birthday a few years back with an awesome optical zoom and I can really get some great shots of the moon! I need to nurture my photographical (is that a word?) side a little more than I do now! 

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Eyes of the Soul

Just some deep thoughts for today. :)

I am a very spiritual person. I am not part of any organized religion, I just love nature, the universe and the Earth. That's my heaven. I often wonder about the big questions in life...why am I here, what am I supposed to be doing, is there a big secret to life on earth? I get quite philosophical and existential (in my mind) while thinking about all of these mind-bending possibilities...these are all questions that I can't really answer of course, but I try my best to make some kind of sense of it all!  :) When I get frustrated enough, I just figure, it's all about living a good, happy and grateful life filled with love. 

Then I watch a Woody Allen movie, always loaded with philosophical nuances...and I'm at it again, pondering life, death and the afterlife! :)

Saturday, September 2, 2017

Stop Wasting Your Time!

This Tarot spread is near and dear to my heart. At one point in my life, I had accounts to pretty much every social media site that was out there. I just wanted to be "up" on technology. I found it so lonely though. I ended up endlessly browsing these sights, bored and feeling rejected by my friends who formerly emailed me, then switched that up for a "like" or a "poke". Conversation just dropped off and I hated it. I spent HOURS a day on these sites, then hours a day watching television...it was a bleak existence lol!

So I canceled my cable, sold my television and deleted all of my accounts online. That was in 2010. I was digitally "clean". Suddenly though, I had a lot of time to fill. I wasn't dating yet at that point, so I dove into hobbies. What a MUCH better way to fill my time!

The only social media, besides email, that I have is Blogger. For me, this is not only social because I get to meet some really nice people; but it's a nice way to pay a tribute to my life and what's important to me. I have a smart phone, but I don't really use it for more than taking pictures, the occasional phone call, and texting my boyfriend when we're too lazy to call down to each other between floors...terrible isn't it lol? I much rather spend my time offline, doing homey stuff and spending time with the fur kids and Alex. I never have any regrets when I balance my life and do what feels rewarding and joyful.

I don't want to be on my death bed updating my Facebook status to "still holding on." 😲

Friday, September 1, 2017

Battlefield Ghosts: Shadows of the Past

Once in a while I pull out my "Ghosts and Spirits" Tarot deck. I don't feel in tune with that deck for some reason, but the artwork and tales of ghosts and spirits in history is pretty interesting! They give me ideas for spreads as I read though the symbolism and meanings of each card.

The Battlefield Ghosts represent the shadows of the past. There is something in everyone's past that occasionally casts a shadow on our present life. For a while there, the shadows of my past affected me daily...that was a trying time! But hard work and consistency does help to put that darkness where it belongs...in the past.

Learning from our past mistakes, or events that affected us badly that we couldn't control; now that is the key to growth. I'm guilty of repeating past mistakes, for sure. Sometimes I learn the hard way and after falling down a few times, I think "oh yeah" as the light bulb goes off lol...

And just an interesting note: Thoughts are POWERFUL. How many times have you been sitting quietly, feeling okay, then a thought from the past just pops up? If it's a good thought - great! That feeling of happiness is something we all want in our lives. But if it's a bad thought, it has the power to stir up the emotions attached to it and basically send us into a spiral of negativity and perhaps sadness. Thoughts are so incredibly powerful...that's why I often preach about the power of positivity and squashing those negative thoughts as soon as they come up. Life is too short to allow past shadows to interfere with our present lives.